Old habits die hard, I know this to be true. I fought urges many times. I've walked by the dessert table, passed on French fries, and sworn off pizza.
Some things aren't so easy. Not when they are staring you in the face, swimming in their sugary goodness.
My old weaknesses creep on in and take hold. I was weak and gave in a little, a little bit more, and even a little more; makes me mad it wasn't even on the "good" stuff.
I guess in hindsight the old Nicole would have indulged in probably the entire box, so the "new Nicole" is fighting to come out even in my moments of weakness. I just need to let her out more often.
So for a moments joy I walked away with a huge belly ache (2 days later my belly still isn't right), a headache, and guilt.....and I suppose a good lesson. Donuts=disaster.
Can I say I'll never eat them again, not likely. But I will rule them, they won't rule me.
You will be accepted if you do what is right. But if you refuse to do what is right, then watch out! Sin is crouching at the door, eager to control you. But you must subdue it and be its master.” (Genesis 4:7 NLT)
Remember the headache and the gut ache (drop the guilt)...I find those physical feelings of discomfort are a great reminder the next time Donut Disaster beings to circle you like a shark. And by the way, congrats on passing by the dessert table, french fries, and pizza and for being so dedicated to your workouts!! Focusing on what you did right, dearie and sending you back pats!
ReplyDeleteThanks Sherri for your positive words and encouragement. I just wish I could get the memory of that sweet taste out of my mouth though....Bwahahaha! :)
ReplyDeleteI love when you type out Bwahahahaha
ReplyDeleteEvery time i read that i laugh out loud picturing you doing that laugh!